unbearable

Original Banshee, on the left, “playing” the trumpet. She opens in The Music Man next weekend. Cannot wait to see it.

Look at her, shooting joy out of the corners of her eyes.
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I seriously can’t bear it. I laugh/cried my way through The Sound of Music last year when she played Gretl. (I have yet to even write about that evening but I intend to.)

It sounds, well, egotistical to say, I suppose, but there were moments when she was onstage when I literally saw myself in her. I’ve noticed it before in her and MB has too. She was only 7 last year, the youngest Von Trapp kid in the play, but she stole that show. I know, I’m her aunt. I would think that, right? But I’m also an actress and I know when someone is stealing the show. That kid has a presence onstage but also knows how to BE present onstage. No one has taught her that. It’s just something she already has. Some of her expressions onstage, the way she uses her eyes, I …. saw myself.

No, she’s not my daughter; she’s my niece, but I guess it makes that childless and wounded part of my heart hurt less to see a little bit of me live on in her.

I think I’m allowed to see that, just a little bit, aren’t I?

(Also, whoever decided to give the littlest kid in the photo the biggest instrument, good job. It works. It’s funny.)

6 Replies to “unbearable”

  1. She is darling. I love her facial expression. I don’t think you are imagining that she takes after you. My youngest takes after my sister in so many ways it’s spooky.

  2. // That kid has a presence onstage but also knows how to BE present onstage. No one has taught her that. It’s just something she already has. //

    Goosebumps!!

  3. // (Also, whoever decided to give the littlest kid in the photo the biggest instrument, good job. It works. It’s funny.) //

    Totally. She looks gleeful and insane. She definitely reminds me of you. I wish I could have seen it!

    I love that show so much.

  4. I don’t think you sound egotistical to take pride in how your niece takes after you. She certainly looks like you.

    I remember when my older nephew was born, a little over seven years ago– how thrilled I was that he had my fingers. And then, a few years later, when it became clear he liked to draw and was good at it? That’s magical.

    by the by– I do think it’s kind of funny that gleeful insanity makes people think of you. 😉

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